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Everybody will leave this forum someday, so I don't restain you from leaving. But please don't say "permanently". Come back anytime. You are a member of our community as long as you're a fan of YUI.

wotever makes you happy if this means farewell so be it

it was nice while it lasted

Ah.. so.. there's a 'farewell' in the end of your post..
...a happy ending...
After I read all of your writings.. I'm quite surprised..
Cause.. we are so much alike.. Uh, actually.. my life is much worse than yours.. Your life isn't that bad.. you're so lucky.. you still have someone who care for you.. at least your mom cried for you..
I envy you.. really..
So.. Cheer up.. you're saved right now..
Bye bye..

EDIT: add more writings..

you will always be welcome here... you can come back anytime you want... I am happy for you... just wait for her... you'll see, she will call...

Hm, I actually dont know what i should say to you. First of all,to me, that experience you just had, is very unique that not everyone could have. Nothing happened in my life yet. 2nd, I'd never thought u actually thought about doing....??????? ( i put ? b/c u might b offended if i say suicide...b/c i hate that word), and im gratefull u DID NOT. Hm, what else can i say? I really hope you both get together again later in the future and have a good time with it.(althou no one waits for me and been so lonely for so long....cough oops off-line...).

One more thing though, You'll never b permanent unless admins bann you which it will never, so once in awhile try and check on here to see what YUI is doing. After all, this is "YUI LOVER" Forum and u r her fans to look up someone.

Enjoy your new life.

I might EDIT things if i dont like few sentences i wrote here, so just dont believe what i wrote here b/c im not really good at doing these stuff..

i understand... i won't stop you either. if you have yahoo massanger add me. i would like to chat with you. it was a great story and i like to make a book about it if you don't mind. :clap :good

JAY, ganbate kudasai!! itsumo ganbateru yo!!

i think after all your ordeal u might have realised this yourself, that YOU ARE SOMEONE, and i'm happy that you walked away unscathed. i'm not going to say that i understand how u are feeling, or that i've been through this stuffs cos thats fake and bullshit. but for all your story, i am going to attempt to write a poem back for you, i suck at literature, so bear with me

i shall name this poem


1st step out

even though its late at night
even though you are lost in a deep forest
even though destiny/fate has blinded your eyes
you think that you have no way out

but just take 1 step out
this step will be your way out
in the darkness
a glimmering path will present itself.

even though fear and cowardice surrounds you
even though they keep dancing in your mind
even though they wants you to surrender
say i quit

even though a storm lies ahead of you
even though u feel u plummet to your lowest point

just take 1 step out
this step will be your way out
in the dark valley
this is your own way out

even though you cannot take it
the feeling of being forgotten and forsaken
nobody cares or knows where you are

even though you are surrounded by smoke and mist
you feel like you are about to suffocate

just take 1 step out
this step will be your way out
its your own way out

even though darkness surrounds you
it binds your senses

but dont you ever think that
its the end of the road
its all over

cos just take 1 step out
and this step will be your way out



i'm proud to know that you have taken your 1st step out, soon you will realise that it was easy walking out of the "forest, hole, mist, darkness" or whatever you were trapped in cos unlike many others, you are brave enough to take that 1 step out, no 1 can help you except yourself.

It's a really good thing that you didn't continue suicide, that's a really good thing...And i wish the two you the best of luck :good .

Well...I can't stop you if your disicion from leaving the forum is "permanent". But if you want to visit this forum at times, you're more welcome!.

Your one of the collest members here in the forum...I wish the best of luck to you.

I really don't know what to say.

I guess first off...what a long post. Yep. Lots of words there. (...Hey! I did read it all!! >_>)

I'm glad that you're still well. I was worried about you. I also can't say that I can relate to how you were feeling all that time.

She WILL call you someday, and you have to keep living for that moment. I wish you the best of luck for the future!

One shall not take over one's life.

Look. you dont really need to leave... We welcome you, and yes we forgive... There are many others like you are suffering.. just like that C... But atleast you can helped her, touching her heart, like you wrote, why cant you touch your own?

Ever thought of thinking what are the roots of your problem?

Why are you so depressed?
Who
How
When
Where

Commiting suicide will just lead you to hell.. why dont you do this

LIVE your LIFE to LOVE one another.

By the way? if you're not a christian...

Im strongly encouraging you...
Know Jesus, follow his words

If you are... know that sentence... and Focus on God, not on Men..

You and me.. We have the same problem... Low Self Esteem, Negativity, Depression... Alot of people are facing these things.. Im facing this... im fighting hard for with my own brain for the better future... Im glad, not only my church and my friends care [ my family dont really care ] But... YUI-Lover also cared!! They helped me alot and yes... I can tell im growing... You have to look positive...
Leaving this forum... go ahead, I wont force you, as you are a YUI-Lover! A fan of YUI! We just welcome you with open arms...

Life is hard, yes... Living a simple life is never easy to achieve...

If there is a mountain in your life... God will not take it away, but he will cross that path with you...

and this is what the Lord spoken to my pastor at march 1995

"i know at times you have wondered where i am. you have prayed about a diffuclt situation and have then waited at length for my answer. if you are still waiting or have ever waited for me to respond, REMEMBER this: My timing is perfected in your commitment to wait for me to respond. if i do deley, it does not mean refusal to your prayer. delay is simply an opportunity for Me to work something wonderful in your life."

Remember this clearly

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

Look... If you dont want Jesus in your life, its ok. I wont force you, but i STRONLY ENCOURAGE YOU TO KNOW ABOUT JESUS. You can always find something ur good at, im not so good at guitar, but yea, im learning hard... and it helps with my low self esteem and my negativity. Look positive towards everything... Focus on God, dont focus on mens... Mens are dissapointing.. Yes they dissapoint me alot of times.. I was like you.. trying to jump down from a 20 storey flat... Yet, my parents didnt care. Atleast you got ur mother, crying... She cared for you... You are not a nobody, you are a somebody. we care for you... You are a special part of us... IN a human, we have alot of things working to keep things in order to keep the human alive right? So... I could be the stomach, Reset can be the hands, Natalie can be the heart, MeronPan can be the blood, Cherii can be the veins and the arteries, Natsumi can be the saliva, Pinklily123 can be the tongue, but if one of those things are gone... it will affect the rest and you wont able to function again right? So.. You may leave this forum, we wont force but.. NEVER TO LEAVE THE WORLD!!

But...

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST

One day.. A man was walking with God on the beach... There was 2 pairs of footprints there... When all the hard times and darkest times... The man turned to find God, but he was not where to be seen and there was only his pair of footprints... Then he asked God where is he and why did he left him.. God replied. " My beloved son, i did not leave you, I was there when you were having your hardest time. I was carrying you so throughout your hardest time.."


God will not take that mountain in your life away, But God will cross that mountain in you.


this is a bible , it is my hope , it is my life and it is my future

and you can live by the bible too! (:

Take care of yourself, be good... and God bless you! :good

*i read evrything u wrote except i didnt read other ppls posts(sry i jsut want to say something and not care abt it being said by other ppl already)*

im glad ur not gonna hurt urself anymore
u know how much ppl in this forum that rly care abt u
u would not be only huritng urself but us too

rly it made me cry when u said "suicide"
u just dun rly deserve to die that way
u should fully live ur life first
im sure there are many things ud want to do
cuz u are human...
suicide wont solve anything
itll make things worse
im just saying im glad u didnt die by it

i hope u atleast come back to read what ppl have said
we luv u rly we do *HUGS* were concerned abt u
i might not talk to u as much as other ppl do
but i rly rly rly care abt u cuz ur my friend ^__^
*HUGS*i know ive talked to u sometimes and im not sure if u remember
im the one that started calling u JAYL in the first place (in the shoutbox lol)
but u shortned it to just Jay lol...

anyways be happy... okay?

hey instead of killing ur self u should support yui so that ur life would hav meaning....like me i'm inspired of yui....he...he....the best way u sould do is support yui and ur family also and find a way to gather us...all yui lovers to go and find yui in japan and support her...he...he...joke....thanks...4 not hurting ur self....

I am glad you came back to said good-bye. I haven't read you other post yet, but I will later.

Hello Just another YuiLover.
I haven't read the previous posts and I don't know the all behind the story.
I just wanna say, I you come by France and Paris by any chance, I will be glad to invite you for lunch or dinner, a talk, a beer, a coca, a jam session, a piece of cake, a fighting pose, a ping-pong match, a tennis match, a chess match, a chinese-chess match, and lots of things that ends with matchs... :) I can offer you a tea flavor donut, if I feel in a very good mood... and give a little of my time. I won't share hugs... sorry. I'm not that kind of guy... :) Virtual hugs is ok though...
Feel free to drop a message if you want.

Anyone know where JAY live?

maybe i don't really know you JAYL but i hope you'll always be happy in your life.. take care of yourself and come back anytime you want..

[Leaving no trace] Horrible memories.

I just read your story, and I am very glad you chose the right path to follow. I never been in a situation like yours, but I had an experience where my high school friend wanted to commit suicide and my best friend and I had a really long emotional and serious conversation with her.

Honestly, I think 'C' will call you back, as it seems like you've been a positive impact during your stay with her. I hope you continue to think positively forward, although it won't be easy, just be sure that the decision you make will not just effect you, but also others (family, friends, co-workers etc.) around you.

I don't know you personally, but I will continue to pray for you and 'C'. I have faith in you, and C. Don't give up :)

Your story made me cry. Honestly, I think it would make an amazing movie ;]

I was so worried about you when you left the forum.. I was so afraid that you were going to kill yourself and there was nothing any of us could do to help you.

I'm glad you got help.

And I'm extremely overjoyed that you met C. I mean, sometimes all someone needs is another human being to be happy and content. I guess in the words of The Beatles.. "all you need is love".

I wish you well on the next step of your life, friend. I'll be anxiously waiting to hear about it.

[Leaving no trace] Blah blah blah

I know and i believe she'll call you JAY. your story is beautiful. i'm a writer and i'd like to take some of your story for my next Novel material, if you don't mind.
we're almost the same. i'm waiting for someone too. her name is Nadira. she's in Amerika right now. it has been 8 months since and we still keep contact. i miss her so much. from my experience, i just know that she'll call you. just believe in her JAY.

[Insert a fool's infatuation.]

8/14/08 - Happy Birthday where ever you are. I guess I couldn't get that present I promised you after all.

hey JAY. I haven't posted here because I can't bring myself to read your story and finish it. I could relate that's why.

I just wish that now you've found the way to happiness you won't turn your back again and be miserable with life again. no one deserves so and so are you.

just continue what you are doing now and be happy.

we'll always be here for you. and count me in.

and since you're already fine, I guess it's time for me to finish your story.

Happiness is not a sin.
It's about striving in life. Strive to be...

A lot of people would like to but can't...
You can't help them unless you help yourself first.

Not everyone can change the world...
But if you can change even one person than that's worth it.

Try to live a good life for yourself, for your parents, for your family, for your friends...and for all those who would like to but can't.


I'm glad everything is going the right way again.

Here's a song for you, it kinda matches your story.
Racoon - Love You More
(Also for everyone else who's willing to listen to this beautiful song)